As much happiness as 2013 has brought us, I am very happy it is over. I think the most important part of this journey has been realizing is it easier to be unhappy – unhappy for others, unhappy for myself, unhappy with life in general.
I have learned that family really is the most important support system in our lives. There is a reason we can pick our friends but not our family. Sometimes the things we least want to hear or feel we need least, are the things that pull us through. I don’t know about everyone but my “picker” has been off multiple times with regard to friend choices. Which is why I am grateful to have been born into a group of people who didn’t pick me and I didn’t pick them. They didn’t decide to love me unconditionally or support my many half-baked ideas. Yet they do.
I have learned that choosing your spouse is the most important decision you make. (You think I would have figured that out before May…) Unlike your family, he chooses to love you unconditionally. He chooses to support your decisions and stands by your side whether or not you are rational. He chooses to not judge you when you pour that fourth glass of wine and cry about something that probably won’t matter in 24 hours. He chooses to not make you feel like you are difficult to love when some days you probably are.
Knowing all this, I have decided to make a change for 2014 – not a New Year’s resolution – because I hope this decision lasts much longer than one year. I have decided to be happy. Regardless of what happens in our lives, if you find that elusive, internal, soul-satisfying happiness, it becomes that much easier to be happy for everyone else. I have decided to be happy with all decision we have made together. To be happy with the direction my life has taken. And most importantly, to be happy for others in our life because that it the ultimate sign of happiness – Possessing the ability to be happy for others.
Thank you 2013 for teaching me that happiness comes from within and not what is happening around me. It is something I am able to control. Thank you for bringing us life changing events that have taught me. I am looking forward to 2014 and the clean slate it brings with it.